Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in edgeandanxious' LiveJournal:

[ << Previous 20 ]

Monday, August 30th, 2004
1:49 pm	X friends only X lurk lurk lurkey lurk (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
3:16 am	today was rad. this week is shaping up to be that way. fun times were had downtown with carly crisis, then mike and jess. I want atlas again asap. i miss the ex-wife though. i wish she could have come and played too :( (Comment on this)
Monday, August 23rd, 2004
1:52 am	everything was wrong so we sat, sang sentimental songs... the last week, except for one thing has blown hard. my father died thursday. i have nothing important to say to anyone. i dont really know how to deal with this. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 17th, 2004
9:29 pm	i made my self food tonight, it was good (Comment on this)
Monday, August 16th, 2004
12:57 am	if i didnt have the greatest friends in the world, there would be NO way i could handle this. i had the best conversation with krista from canada, i'm so glad she is happy and having a good time with dave, i talked to him for a bit too, he seems crazy and fun, and i think if me from back in the day were to hangout with him lots of trouble would be caused. im so glad she is feeling better. a side from the obvious bad shit going on right now, i couldn't be any happier. i have someone tottaly awesome on myside and the best friends ever. i think that is what is important. i love you all. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 14th, 2004
2:39 pm	so i went to say goodbye today.goodbye dad.i love you. (Comment on this)
Friday, August 13th, 2004
11:33 am	i really fucking wish everyine would stop giving me shit about this, what the fuck am i supposed to say to someone about to die? i dont want to see him dying in a hospital bed. i dont want to hear words i should have heard years ago. i dont want to tell someone how i felt when they never let me in the first place. im not a child and i really hate the fact that everyone is treating me like one. i realize i will never be able to talk to him again, im not stupid and im not a fucking child. dont fucking tell me how to deal with the fact that my fater has "between a few hours and a few days left". i really wish it were me and not him.fuck this. (Comment on this)
4:23 am	ps. krista have a safe trip and bring me back something cool and canadian. this is needed: firestorm-earth crisis Street by street. Block by block. Taking it all back. The youth's immersed in poison--turn the tide counterattack. Violence against violence, let the roundups begin. A firestorm to purify the bane that society drowns in. No mercy, no exceptions, a declaration of total war. The innocents' defense is the reason it's waged for. Born addicted, beaten and neglected. Families torn apart, detroyed and abandoned. Children sell their bodies, from their high they fall to drown. Demons crazed by greed cut bystanders down. A chemically tainted welfare generation. Abslolute complete moral degeneration. Born addicted, beaten and neglected. Families torn apart, detroyed and abandoned. Children sell their bodies, from their high they fall to drown. Demons crazed by greed cut by standers down. Corrupt politicans, corrupt enforcement, drug lords and dealers; all must fall. The helpless are crying out. We have risen to their call. A firestorm to purify. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
4:15 am	youuuuuuuuuuuu gotta stay positive so i get home at four a.m. to find out that my father has had another bad heart attack in the hospital and is now on life support. I guess my reaction wasnt good enough because mt sister and non-sisters are all pissed off at me. im sorry that i am ready for the inevitable and you aren't. i just saw it coming. how am i supposed to react to this? whatever im a fucking asshole i guess. smoking fucking kills. Current Mood: dead on the inside Current Music: converge-farewell note to this city (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 12th, 2004
6:06 pm	i cant wait til i move out of this shit hole town. i makes me sick to my stomach thinking about all these fake people here,i hate it hate it hate it. and i CANNOT wait until the next fucking trend so 80% of these fucks can move on. my fucking love is a trend, i fucking hate it. on a happier note. 3 reasons why i feel better today. 1-good clean fun-positively positve 1997-2002 2-someone giving me lots of hugs 3-vegan "chicken" nuggets it seems nice out today and i have no work tomorrow. rebel alliance show at the teishu basement.should see chris, i hope so. i miss him and jamie so much, i wish i wasn't such a fuck up about that.i want it to be coldish out,i want to wear a hoodie and stay out with people way to late and drive home red eyed and tired.i hope this fall makes up for the lack of anything except for wastechester this summer. i need out of here asap. if it werent for a few friends i couldnt take this place at all. Current Mood: restless Current Music: before mourning comes (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 11th, 2004
6:58 pm	im definitely not feeling very posi today. i feel like a jerkoff someone hurt my feelings for no reason. whatever i'll get over it. fucking hell...... Current Music: champion (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 10th, 2004
12:39 am	ut oh so the past few days have been really good and that just scared me my inner defeatist will only let me think things can go this well for so long. #12/bodies in the gears show tonight was incredible, such good bands, sick tshirt action, (sorry krista, hopwfully they will have size small nexxxt time :( ) both bands played new songs, they were hot. i'm able to get online with my laptop that is pretty rad. vegan ice cream wed. with carly and her friends, any of ya'll want down? i smell shower time.goodevening Current Mood: tickeled 3 shades of pink Current Music: fuck the facts (Comment on this)
Monday, August 9th, 2004
2:01 pm	much like lots of things in life my internet at home is fucked up. (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 7th, 2004
11:49 pm	good weekend.very good weekend. highlights: -aqua teen hunger force season 2 and invader zim vol.1 dvds -purlpe rain -morris day -finding the half eaten tapon (there is a grind title if i ever heard one) -something to be named later -getting a cd to be named later -spending time with someone special tomorrow, work :( monday: bodies in the gears, thenumbertwelve, and ternminally your aborted ghost....i dont go, i die! (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 5th, 2004
10:45 pm	( bizored ) Current Mood: dirty Current Music: sex positions (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004
11:53 pm	im scaredandhappyandworriedandmisssomeoneandtiredandexcited all at the same time. i dont think i will sleep tonight... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
6:26 am	dear sir or mad'dam, please stop making my lifestyle a commodity. Thank you for you concern, Anthony (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 2nd, 2004
12:56 pm	Fav band starting with the letter A:: a modest promise, agorophobic nosebleed, acrid B:: bodies in the gears, bright eyes,black flag C:: converge, circle takes the square, creation is... D:: deaddeaddeath E:: earth crisis F:: far,fugazi, from a second story window, for all its worth G:: genuine H:: helmet,hum,herion,himsa I:: i,robot, i would set myself on fire for you J:: joshua fit for battle,johnny cash K:: knife the glitter L:: liftime M:: mannequin,minor threat N:: norma jean, the number 12 looks like you O:: orchid P:: pg99, pig destroyer Q:: q and not u R:: Reversal Of Man,refused,reggie and the, ryan adams S:: slayer!!!! T:: two dead sluts one good fuck, terminally your aborted ghost. this years model U:: unsane V:: vitamnin x, vod W:: wolves, walls of jehrico X:: umm none? Y:: yacopsae, you and i Z:: zao (Comment on this)
10:27 am	wow, i feel as if i have motivation to do shit today, and its not to hot in here,sweet list of things to do or not do today-- sick laundry mosh--in progress eat a veg wrap or go to pb&j co. generation? movie take pictures who's down, this means you krista and jess. (Comment on this)
Friday, July 30th, 2004
4:59 pm	bored.wish i wasn't around ( bored and unhappy ) (2 Comments |Comment on this)